my gay agenda

monday : watch love simon and cry

tuesday : watch queer eye and cry

rest of the week : ??? but probably will include gay shit and cry

me : i mean yeah im pretty thin, but it’s natural, i dont exactly exercise or diet

tarran : you kinda diet, you’re a vegetarian

me : right yeah i eat vegetarian pizza instead of meat pizza, that’s how i stay thin

it was my first day of vacation today and it was nice. i cleaned my bedroom like i wanted to. i saw my godkid’s play, which was adorable. i watched the football/soccer game and we won. i relaxed and read and watched a couple of videos. my cat looks like she’s over her sickness.

idk man life is good for once

me : wow i’ve been feeling kinda numb in these past few days, i hope it gets better soon

my brain : you want to be overemotive is what you want? you want to overreact to everything? cry just because you cant find a shirt you like??? suddenly remember painful memories out of nowhere?????? you wanted emotions i hope you’re ready for E M O T I O N S

so a few days ago, a bit of traumatic memory reached out to me

it hurt very much at first, but i know it only meant to say “you’ve been repressing me for a long time, and it’s time for you to acnowledge my existence and the impact i still have on you today”

and im grateful for that. that memory is right : it’s time for me to work on it so i can learn to live with it and eventually move on, instead of pretending it doesnt exist or that it was very minor

once i was past the first hurt of remembering it, i was happy for the memory to have reached out

I JUST WISH THAT MEMORY HAD STAYED REPRESSED JUST ANOTHER WEEK. SERIOUSLY SOME OF US HAVE FINALS

politics are awful, depression is a lil bitch, finals are stressful, relationships are hard, drama club is too much work BUT AT LEAST THIS BITCH FINALLY HAVE HEADPHONES AGAIN

i forgot to mention it here but I MET A GIRL AT PRIDE AND SHE’S CUTE AF AND WE’RE LIKE FLIRTING AND EVERYTHING AND SHE’S SO LOVELY AND I THINK WE MIGHT HAVE SOMETHING

i just realized that my finals will last two weeks. two weeks. and by two weeks i mean that i dont have a weekend either. please kill me.

a lot of things are happening to me rn so im sharing less than usual on here but i still wanted to highlight the fact that thanks to one of my classmates i’ll get to have my chosen name in my yearbook!

love it when all of your insecurities and fears decide to show you a powerpoint called “Why You Are Currently Messing Up Everything In Your Life And Took Nothing But Bad Decisions”