Étiquette : but well

jk-destroyed-our-best-gay-ships:

well, any hope i had of feeling better once i was back at school and around my friends all the time vanished.

my drama class has always been one of my best sources of comfort, the 3 to 5 hours a week where i just felt nice

and now im skipping it bc my teacher keeps insisting that we have to act in a feminine way, and really play on our “womanhood”… can you feel me exploding with dysphoria?

so anyway i know if i go im just gonna either cry in front of everyone or just curl up in a ball and ignore everything

but if i just keep skipping classes im going to fail my finals and not graduate

so now a thing i really love has been ruined and everything sucks

so i dont know what to do. probably just cry.

update : the situation just got even worse. honestly i dont know how im gonna go back to class

to other neurodivergent people :

while i understand the need for positivity and support in our community, i dont think i’m the only one who is extrememly bothered by all the “you have to handle me at my worst” posts.

like sure, you deserve loved ones who will take care of you and look after you. but also, dont fucking guilt trip them in doing things they dont want to do or make them feel miserable.

“oh, i yelled at you and you cried ? sorry, but you know thats how i get sometimes when i feel low. deal with it” -> unhealthy.

if helping you with your bad days make someone so miserable they dont want to be close to you anymore, they arent “misunderstanding your poor depressed self” they are protecting their own mental health and they are allowed to do that.

my ex ( and this is no easy thing to open up about, so please be kind ) literally coerced me into some non sexual kinks ( weird to describe it like this but i dont want to get more specific ) i did not consented to and never intended to consent to because it was her “coping mechanism”

some people will be able to stay by your side even when you’re at your worst. but please dont guilt trip people into doing so, because it will hurt them

thoughts on hbp : you know how slughorn keeps saying that lily was really good at potions? well here’s a thought : what if she discovered a part of the ameliorations on snape’s potions book herself ? like they both worked together to invent better ways to make potions

so maybe, if harry had found snape’s potions book from first year there would have been two different penmanships

and the more hexes appear at the bottom of the pages, the less of that rounder writing there was