The Girl Who Discovered The World

Or : “The Life Of Andromeda Tonks : Part Two”

andromeda’s first months in hogwarts were extremely difficult
first of all, she realized her sister didn’t always want to hang out with her like they used to
she was always with her own friends, telling andromeda to just go and make some on our own, but andromeda didn’t know how to do that
she had never talked to any other children than her sisters
she spent a lot of time alone in the park or in the dorm, both avoiding other kids and hoping they’ll talk to her
her other issue was classes
she was good in charms, but was pretty bad in any other subject
because she still couldn’t read a book
if she focused enough, she could read a page in five minutes, but it left her exhausted and on the verge of tears
she barely slept at night when she had an assignement, and her final results were always poor
her parents weren’t glad about this
in her three first months, she received four howlers
she was constantly stressed out and sometimes cried herself to sleep
bella tried to make her feel better the first times, but eventually grew tired of it and told her sister to just make efforts
so andromeda pushed herself to her limits to make her family happy
she started to sleep and eat less
even when she hadn’t any homeworks, she still read her notes again and again
but her grades still weren’t good enough
and andromeda was so scared of what would happen when she’ll go back to her parents for the holidays
they were going to kill her
she dreaded her return so much she had nightmares about it
but someone noticed her state
it wasn’t a teacher or the school healer – andromeda still knew how to act okay in front of other people, thanks to her parents
it was another terrified young slytherin girl
her name was ayleth, and she was in the same dorm as andromeda
she heard the cry, she noticed all the signs of andromeda’s problems
so she did what andromeda both wanted and avoided
she talked to her
at first of casual things
like the quidditch team, or the boys in their year
and andromeda grew attached to the girl
she was sweet, but she could make the meanest comments when she disliked something
she loved to read, and told andromeda stories from what she read
always adding her personnal elements
so after a month or so, andromeda started to open up to her
telling her everything about her problems with homeworks and her sister
but something kept her from telling her about how things were at home
ayleth immediatly seemed understanding and compassionate
once she saw by herself that andromeda simply could not read, she took the matter in her own hands and read to her the pages they needed for their assignements
she would help andromeda to write too, and congratulated her everytime she made progresses
andromeda, after years of idealizing bella, discovered ayleth was actually her favorite person in the world
whenever she got an okay grade, she immediatly went to show her friend
and when she found out she was pretty okay at flying, ayleth helped her to practice and to get better
ayleth was also the one who introduced andromeda to physical touch
althrough andromeda didn’t like hugs that much, she found them comforting when she received an howler
whenever they split up for the holidays, they wrote each other one letter a day
andromeda talked about her friend to bella
but most of the time bella ignored her to talk about her own friends and life
andromeda didn’t understand what was going on with her sister
but it was okay, because she had ayleth
this is how andromeda survived her first year
despite her low grades, her parents, bella and everything, she was happy
but at the beginning of her second year, she noticed something was off with ayleth
she tried to make her talk about it, but ayleth always found a way to change the subject
until one day andromeda found her crying in the bathroom
and ayleth finally confessed her secret
she wasn’t a pureblood
her dad was a muggleborn and her mum was a muggle
her father had warned her about the racism in the wizarding world, so she told everyone her family was foreign and pureblood, so that was why no one knew them
but she couldn’t lie to andromeda
andromeda didnt know what to do
her parents never mentionned the possibility of a mudblood in slytherin
from what she understood, mudbloods could immediatly be recognized
and they weren’t supposed to be as sweet and clever than ayleth
andromeda had no idea what to do
she wanted to ask a thousand questions about how and why
but she knew questions were better unasked
so she didn’t say anything
and she left
and as she shut er best friend out of her life, she thought her parents would be proud of her
hadn’t she done everything they wanted her to do ?
and if she heard sobs from ayleth’s bed at night, well, no one could prove she had actually heard them
things were better this way for everyone, she knew
she had a great family, and the black were so noble she could probably make other friends along the other pureblood kids
she knew she had a perfect life
she knew there was nothing to complain about
she knew she did the right thing
she knew she was on the good way for her parents to love her one day
she knew there was nothing wrong with her
and if from times to times, she felt as if she was wrong, well, she brushed away the thought and shut up, like she learned to do

The Girl Who Asked Questions

or : “The Life Of Andromeda Tonks, Part One”

andromeda black wasn’t really a difficult child, all things considered
she never shouted
her room was always clean
she never run everywhere to make a mess like other children did
she always obeyed her parents
she loved her sister bella dearly
the two were always playing together
quiet games like dolls or brushing eachother’s hair
they had barely one year of difference, and they were so alike people mistaked them as twins
andromeda was always pleased when people said that, but bella got mad because she was the older sister who was always right and stronger than andromeda, merlin !
the two often sat on bella’s bed to chat aout what they would be when they would grow up
bella wanted to be a respected and powerful woman that everyone would look up to and always obey. she would have the most powerful friends
andy wanted none of that
she wanted a nice husband and children to love, and a house by the sea
bella always laughed, saying her baby sister still believed in fairy tales
and andromeda would laugh too, but her dream remained
and they would keep talking like always, and andromeda would not talk about it again
not until next time, because little andromeda didn’t like to keep her thoughts inside
andromeda black wasn’t such a difficult child, but she asked questions
why is the sky blue ?
where did books come from ?
how did people build houses ?
and on the good days, she would get a patient explaination from her mother
on the bad days, she would be asked to stay quiet because adults are busy
but some of the questions qhe asked were less innocent
why do mudbloods deserve to die ?
do houseleves really enjoy being treated like slaves ?
and she doesn’t mean it badly, she just wants to understand
but of course her parents get upset
her usual punishment is to get locked up in her bedroom for hours
in these moments, she would sat on the bed, her hands on her knees, doing nothing but waiting in silence
or sometimes she would stand in front of the door, starring at the doorhandle to see it opening when her parents would release her
but she won’t ever complain
because andromeda black wasn’t a difficult child

the only time andromeda black threw a tantrum was when her sister narcissa was 3 months old
she was always crying loudly, and andromeda got upset because if she had to stay quiet all the time, why could the baby scream and no one punished her ?
why wasn’t she locked up in her room ?
that was the only time andromeda threw a tantrum, and she remained locked up in her bedroom for three days
she spent this entire time crying in silent
because all the questions she knew she couldn’t ask were burning her throat
and when the burn was too strong and the questions escaped, she would get punished like this
it was all too much for her
narcissa and andromeda relationship’s never got better over the years
andromeda was always jealous of her little sister
it seemed like she had everything easier
she was allowed to be a little louder than her sister
she was allowed to more toys
she was allowed to more questions
and of course that was what upseted andromeda the more
it was unfair, and andromeda cared very deeply about things being fair
the other thing she hated about narcissa was that she constantly stole bella’s attention
the two of them would be talking about their future life, and then narcissa would come in the room and interrumpt them and bella would insist that she joined the game
and andromeda would stay quiet in her corner of the room while narcissa was babbling about her future perfect house which was made of candies or whatever rubbish her 4-years-old mind could come up with
andromeda fought about this with bella once
she ended up crying loudly, which of course meant locked up too
bella was so mad at her that she told her liked narcissa better because she never asked stupid questions
andromeda was sad for days
but despite narcissa, bella and andromeda were still closest than most of sisters
which is why it was so hard for andromeda when bella went to hogwarts
their age difference was small, but long enough to put them in two separated years
bella swore she would write every week
and she did
every sunday, her beautiul owl would give the little andromeda news from her sister
she always read them after breakfast in her room
the letters were full of details about the castle, classes, the teachers, bella’s friends…
andromeda knew almost evrything about her sister’s life
the letters would always fininsh on “i can’t wait for you to join me”
and andromeda would always wisper “me too”
because life at home without bella was tasteless
she was bored all the time
the only person to talk to was narcissa, and andromeda was not desesperate enough to do that
so she played alone in her bedroom, or tried to read the old books from her father’s office
but the words always faded in front of her, and it was very long for her to read a single page
but her father have told her that books have answers to many questions
so she kept trying
and she kept failing
but she never gave up
because she needed to be clever and know a lot of things to go to hogwarts with her sister
and she needs to be with her sister
so the day she finally receives her hogwarts acceptance letter is the most beautiful day of her entire life
because in a few weeks bella and her will be together all the time again
and she will get to see the wonderful school bella described to her with her own eyes
andshe just can’t wait
and now she can think of that when she has to sit in silence in her room
and it gives her a bubble of hope

things i need to know about andromeda black

when did she stop believing in her parents’s values ?

was it hard for her to admit her feelings for a muggleborn ?

what was her relationship with her sisters ?

when was the first time she argued with her parents about her values ?

how did she meet teddy ?

was dating him her first act of rebellion toward her parents ?

please please please tell me she secretley owned mugle clothes and records ?

how did she react when teddy asked her out/asked teddy out ?

how did she feel about being disowned ?

why the hell did she call her daughter nymphadora ?

what did she do during the first war ?

was she a feminist ?

was she queer ?

did she have a job ?

what was her hopes and dreams ?

how did she feel about having a punk kid ?

and a punk grandson ?

we know she’s badass, but how much exactly ?

was she pressured by her own family to end her relationship with teddy ?

did she play quidditch ?

was she traumatized by her family like sirius was ?

what was her strongest subject ?

did she have a lot of friends in her house ? in the other houses ?

was she as beautiful as she is in my head ?

what was her patronus ? and what memory did she think of while conjuring one ?

what kind of mother was she ?

how much did she yell on remus for leaving her pregnant daughter ?

how did she feel about him in a general way ?

what did she say about them both to teddy when he grew up ?

how did she feel about teddy being named after her dead husband ?

well, i have a new fic to write.