jk-destroyed-our-best-gay-ships:

anger level :

i just wrote a cover of “what is this feeling” from wicked with elphaba as me and gelinda as the gender binary…

im sharing it…

okay so this is by no means perfect but
i had a lot of fun writing and singing it so im sharing it anyway !

(elliot is me, this is from the pov of an afab non binary person)

also warnings : mention of
misgendering, people supporting the gender binary and
transphobia/exorsexism

 

_________

Binary :
[spoken] Dear worldwide fans and admirers…

Elliot :
[spoken] …Dear friends

Both :
There’s been some confusion over gender here, you see…

Elliot : But
of course I will stand my ground

Binary : But
of course I’ll riiiiise above it

Both : For I
know that’s how you’ld want me to respond. Yes.

There’s been some
confusion for you see my hostress/AGAB
is…

Binary :
Unusually and exceedingly unwilling and altogether quite hard to
categorize…

Elliot :
Female.

Binary :
What is this feeling, so sudden and new ?

Elliot : I
felt the moment I laid eyes on you

Binary : My
pulse is rushing.

Elliot : My
head is reeling.

Binary : My
face is flushing !

Both : What
is this feeling ?

Fervid as a flame

Does it have a
name ?

Yes…

Loathing !
Unadulterated loathing !

Binary : For
your name !

Elliot :
Your boxes !

Binary :
Your pronouns !

Both : Let’s
just say- I loathe it all !

Every little
trait how ever small

Makes my very
flesh begin to crawl

With simple utter
loathing !

There’s a strange
exhilaration

In such total
detestation !

It’s so pure,
it’s so stroooong !

True it did not
come quite that fast

Still I do
believe that it will last.

And I will be
loathing, loathing you,

My whole life
long !

Ensemble :
Dear Binary, you are just too good !

How do you stand
them, I don’t think I could !

They’re a terror,
they’re a rebel

We don’t mean to
show a bias

But Binary you’re
a martyr !

Binary :
Well, these things are sent to try us…

Ensemble :
Poor Binary, forced to reside

With someone so
unwilling to side !

We just want to
tell you, we’re all on your side !

Both : What is this feeling,

So sudden and new ?

I felt the moment I laid eyes on you !

My pulse is rushing

My head is reeling

Oh, what is this feeling ?

Does it have a name ?

Yes…

Loathing !

Ensemble : We share your loathing,

Unadulterated loathing

For their name, their box, their
pronouns !

Let’s just say- We loathe it all !

Ev’ry little trait, however small

Makes our very flesh begin to crawl

Ahhh…

Loathing !

Both :
There’s a strange exhilaration, (loathing!)

In such total
detestation, (loathing!)

It’s so pure,
it’s so stroooong ! (so strong!)

True, it did not
come quite that fast,

But I do believe
that it will last !

And I will be
loathing for forever, (loathiiiing…)

Loathing, truly
deeply, (loathiiiing…)

Loathing you,
(loathing you…)

My whole life
long !

Ensemble :
Loathing, unadulterated loathing !

Elliot :
Boo !

Binary :
Ah !

Hi! Not sure where you are geographically at the moment but Trans Help Line is staffed by very helpful & loving folks! They’re available at either of these numbers: US: (877) 565-8860 CANADA: (877) 330-6366 At these times: Trans Lifeline operators are available 18 hours a day every day of the week, pacific time: 8am to 2am & volunteer operators may be available during off hours. Hope this helps! If you’re not in the US or Canada they are also on Twitter at @translifeline. Sending warm vibes!

omg thank you so much!!!
i am unfortunately neither american nor canadian, but i will check out their twitter next time i feel like this (which will be pretty soon bc my life is awful)
and i accept all the warm vibes! right back at you cool anon!

I wasn’t sure if you were gonna respond to a message but I just wanted you to know how sorry I am you’re going to go through that awful drama weekend. Know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and that you’re valid to me and to all the followers who appreciate you. I hope things won’t go too terribly, you’re a wonderful person who deserves good things to happen to them. Sending the most positive energy I can along with a shit-ton of Hufflepuff hugs! 💛🖤💛🖤💛🖤💛🖤💛🖤💛🖤💛🖤💛🖤💛🖤💛🖤

thank you, that means a lot. i mean it’s going to go horribly for sure but at least i’ll try to think of the hugs