One of the things that piss me the most about the fandom view of Sirius is when he’s described as hating, despising or being an asshole to Peter before Azkaban
There’s no evidence of that (and I refuse to take “before Wormtail wets himself” as him being mean because it’s not a rude thing to say to a friend you’re close with and he uses the same tone he spoke to Prongs and later to Remus – it’s only Sirius being the tactful, humble and gentle person he his)
Likewise the harshness and hatred Sirius shows toward him in the Shrieking Shack totally make sense if you thing that Peter’s destroyed his brother’s, sister in law’s and his own lives, along with Remus’ and the ones of all the innocents killed by his double-crossing.
Yes, he does denigrate and offend him calling him a talentless and opportunistic tag-along, but he says this out of anger and pain. He says it because he loved Peter and felt betrayed. It wouldn’t hurt that much if he never care about him.
Despite the scarcity of the intersactions described in the books, however, we can actually see Sirius loving and caring for Peter as a friend.
Firstly he trust Peter instead of Dumbledore or Remus, (and we all know how strong Pads and Moony’s bond was is , wheather you believe they’re totally gay for each other or not) with something he valued more than his own life. It never occurred to him that Peter could betray them. Never even had a sparkle of doubt (otherwise he wouldn’t have risk the Potters’ life)
It’s also said that he checked on Peter the night the Potters died, he made sure he was safe. Was it an habitual routine, or did he remember the casual mention of how distressed and fed up poor Wormy was in Lily’s letter?? Either way, it shows affection and concern toward him.
Also I find interesting that Sirius is said to be scared twice in the books: when James, Lily, Harry and potentially Peter are in danger and when he’s about to die (we’re coming back to this one later).
Later, when Pettigrew, being the asshole he is, blames Padfoot and then justifies himself, Sirius yells at him. And the words he says express mostly anger, disappointment and disbelieve, almost. They show us how it hurts Sirius that his friend, whom he cared about and trusted and loved so much is not the person he thought he was and betrayed him.
Peter should have died for them, as the Marauders – Sirius included – would have died for him. Now, we all know about Pads’ nobility and bravery, but dying for someone is NOT something you do lightly (he himself is said to be scared of death, as anticipated) yet Sirius doesn’t even stop to think if he would have die for Peter, because of course he would have.
Now last thing I can think of (it’s late at night/early in the morning here, I should definitly write this stuff in a different time) is that when Peter starts begging for his life, he adresses Sirius first, even before any of the kids (they’re just kids, they musy have mercy, or at least be easier to manipulate, after all Harry didn’t find it in him to kill Black when he thought he was guilty) or Remus, the only one who could hold back and balance Sirius’ fury.
Because Sirius’d never kill nor hurt a friend on purpose,unless he thought he was a spy at least, and he’s Peter, a Marauder, Sirius’ friend –except he’s not anymore.
Of course you’re entitled to have your own opionion, but I just feel it’s so out of the character for someone like Sirius, whose defining trait is his loyalty
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(sorry i have a lot of thoughts on the subject)
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and lastly wow thank you so much????? now that you mention it, it’s true that i am a very “passionate” writer, i never realized that… and i’m glad it shows when my works are read!
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