Auteur : jkdestroyedourbestgayships

everyone on here and now some of my irl friends are ALL playing the new hogwarts mystery game

and i’m sitting there bc i CANNOT download it for whatever reason google play is telling me it’s not compatible with any of the 3 different phones i had since the game came out

i just want to join in the fun :’(

I think you said you are dissociating so I’m going to give you my basic tips: 1) make sure you are in a safe place. Stay home or go home or get someone you trust to pick you up so you don’t have to drive or travel. 2) consider logging out of social media. 3) try making a list of things you know are real. Even if they are simple, like the trees are real, my dog is real, my name is so and so. 4) find something or someone that makes you feel anchored. Hug your dog or paint or talk to a friend.

thank you
i think i’m startibg to ressurface a little bit akready but im still not really here

1) im at home, safe
2) i dunno if i can? bc then i will have nothing to do and it light get worse
3)im gonna try that now ill tell you if it works
4) i mean im alobe but i can hug ly stuggzd animal ? itq a gift from my friendsbso close enoigh i giess

everyone always speaks about songs that make you wanna be a witch from 3 centuries ago or a fairy with hair flowing in the wind and they talk about it like it’s a nice feeling but to me it’s just that one gigantic hole of need and want that can never be fullfilled and my entire life feels bland and none of my dreams are achievable

jk-destroyed-our-best-gay-ships:

okay but all the soulmate au explain that there is just THE ONE for you.
but what about polyamorous relationships then ? bc that’s what i wanna see :

AU where your soulmate name is written on your wrist and there is three names on yours and you just think your soulmate has a really weird and long name

AU where you can “text” your soulmate by writing on your arm, and soon it just turns into a group chat with your datemates which is just a huge cute mess ( especially since of them is always writing embarrassing stuffs to troll everyone )

AU where you start to see color when you meet your soulmate, but instead for you each datemate came with only a few colors and you didn’t see perfectly until you meet all of them.

AU where the first sentence your soulmate tells you is tattooed on your arm but you have several sentences and you’re like : “okay, i have already met ‘is this seat taken please’ and ‘hello i’m your new colleague’ now i just need to find ‘who the hell do they think they are’ and i’ll be done”

trans james potter

jk-destroyed-our-best-gay-ships:

  • 6 years old james who tells his parents he is actually a boy. they think it is just a joke or a game first, but after some time they realize he is very serious and asks him if he wants to change his pronouns. 6 years old james happily agrees.
  • 7 years old james who chooses his new name and throws away all his dresses because even if boys can wear dresses too he hates it and feels like they are wrong on him
  • 8 years old james who pulls a very special prank on his grandma after she misgendered him and used his dead name and didn’t apologize. the prank involved fish, a handbad and a lot of eggs.
  • 9 years old james who is very glad because his parents have officially changed his name and his dead name is now completely forgotten
  • 10 years old james who starts to worry that he’ll have to explain to an entire school he’s not a girl bc he is starting to get more and more misgendered by strangers ( in shops for exemple ) and he knows there are a lot of transphobe out there
  • 11 years old james who is getting to hogwarts and cross the path of one rather chubby boy who called him a girl, but noticed the hurt in his eyes and immediatly asked for the correct pronouns and apologized, before to offer him a chocolate frog. and that is how james and peter became friends. later that day he will get equally positive reactions fro the oher guys in the boy dorm he lives in
  • 12 years old who first learns hexes with sirius to “punish” bigots, with the help of their quiet and pacifist friend remus who is a bit too enthusiastic about this whole thing
  • 13 years old james who starts to notice the pretty red hair girl in their year and feels something is different with her, like she is not the same as anyone he ever met. also 13 years old james potter who receives a binder for christmas because puberty is starting to do her job. pomfrey starts to tlk to him about some hormones potion who might help him. he is not sure if he wants to, though and he declines the offer for now
  • 14 years old james who had his first period, and he excepted them to be very disphoric and awful but really they are alright and he doesn’t mind them. he feels very at ease with his body andmaybe he still faces predjudices sometimes but most of people just doesn’t care about what’s in between his legs ( well… not in a bigoted way at least, bc he definitely has the attention of many students ) including his beautiful lily, and he shouldn’t be so relieved of it bc it is only basic human decency but he still is.
  • 15 years old james who is becoming an animagus and sees his is a stag and not a doe and when he changes back he is crying, because even if he is very confident in his validity and masculinity it feels so right and so good
  • 16 years old james who is called transphobic slurs by snivellus and he is bout to hex the shit out of him but lily is faster and she just punches him in the face and yells at him. after five good minutes of yelling she turns to james and apologizes for fighting his fight and has an entire conversation with him without insulting him.
  • 17 years old james who is dating lily and they are about to have sex for the first time and she warns him that actually she is trans too, but it’s less “seeable” than for james. james’s reaction is genuine excitement bc that’s another thing they have in common
  • 18 years old james who is getting married with the love of his life in a perfect tuxedo and lily is gorgeous in her wedding dress and the world is in flames but they don’t care right now because they are in love and married
  • 19 years old james who feels nauseous and hasn’t has his period in a while for some reason and holy fuck lily we are in trouble
  • 20 years old james who is pregnant and proud but the world is cruel to men with an uterus and a baby in it. when his pregnancy starts to become more noticeable, he goes less and less outside and starts to feel confined. they finally go into hiding and he can’t go out at all. but finally he gives birth to a beautiful child who’s all he wants in life and is beautiful and he’s crying bc this feels so good
  • 21 years old james who is the proud dad of little harry and have an happy married life with lily and he knows that war will be over soon and then we will have that forever in peace

jk-destroyed-our-best-gay-ships:

oh my god i had such a fanfiction-type evening i swear to god

(expect for the fluffy ending part where i actually get the girl, oops)

okay so i went to the theater with some friends : AD, tarran and her friend who we will call Max

and as we were waiting in front of the theater i saw a girl??????? who was so pretty????? like i’m talking blond curly undercut and piercings there

and anyway i obv wanted to go and talk to her but way too much social anxiety

so follows this talk :

Max : “Why dont you just go and talk to her?”

Me : “And tell her what? I’m not good at talking. I’ll just stare at her until she marries me.”

AD : “Doesn’t sound very effective.”

Me : “Okay then I’ll throw her a rock so that she turns around, sees me and marries me”

Max : “Do you want me to go and talk to her for you?”

Me : “Maybe. Idk. What would you even say? We’re sticking with the rock method for now.”

cue to tarran who decides to use the one method who’s always effective in shows, fanfics and anime : tripping in front of her and spilling the content of her bag over the floor so The Girl stops and i can go and talk to her

tarran does so. the bag falls. none of its content spills. The Girl just walks away.

but then!!! we go and sit for the play! and turns out i am sitting right across from her and that i can see her very well. tarran does ridiculous hand gestures to attract her attention. she sees us. we make eye contact. i die. we keep making eye contacts occasionally during the play.

and then the play ends. max is tired of this shit and just walks to her and say we noticed her and she seems nice. i manage to talk to her, she is smart and cool and amazing. i summon every single ounce of courage in my body and ask for her number.

she tells me she’s flattered, but taken.

i die inside and spend half an hour ranting to my friends about how unfair my life is.